well, what can I say same occurrances happened past continue today .... should have known better to think that you might actually recieve my phone call but ney, what can I do what is there to say? I dunno prob'ly better off this way ....

     I'm tellin ya I'm really starting to feel like a bitch going through all this fuck shit stemming from my brain coursing through smoke deluded veins. It ain't right how you don't return my call ever at all and if you home hear whispers, "tell him something ok, I'm not really dressed anyway". That and the lies about never coming by falling though unheard alibies ....

     so what am I left with ....